depression
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
10:08 PM
maybe people don't know me... maybe no one ever will.how can i make it so everyone loves me? i can't.
one look and everyone wants to bash me up.
yeah. i'm a failure.
at no matter what.
i make my friends mad.
i make the people around me hate me so much i just wanna crawl up in a hole and die...
why i have an attitude problem?
because i don't want my friends to see me cry.
because i don't want them to feel that i'm not strong.
in their eyes i'm a strong person.
always strong.
so i'll always be that way...
and when i want to be strong.
i ignore everything.
thats why i have ap..
i notice things.
but i tell myself not to.
i try to ignore them.
i just don't wanna say it all out.
i know how you feel.
you may feel i'm ignorant.
that i don't care.
that i'm the world's greatest loser.
but who really understands me.
myself?
i don't even understand myself.
i know i get pissed when i get ignored.
because i'm afraid.
afraid of being left out.
so.. most of the times .
i am.
instead of listing your problems.. why not you list mine.
i mean for real.
i know my problems but i can't see the answers.
maybe you could guide me?
and i don't really know how to cheer people up.
i'm only a beginner in this cheering up thing.
and just as always.. i'll be a failure at it.
as i am at all other things.
=]
but as for now.
i shall go crawl up in a corner and die...
K-LOVE
notsoSUNNILY and one of these days when i go berserk,
you better hope that i don't have a knife with me.